Every night when I lay my head down to rest I can’t seem to make my mind shut off. A billion thoughts roam threw my head a mile a minute. If something is troubling me I can’t seem to stop analyzing the situation or thinking of what shit I am going to be in the next morning. Lately I have been lucky and have gone to bed with no certain problem haunting my thoughts, but my mind still won’t simply shut off and let me drift to sleep. My mind soars from thought to thought, mostly about my boyfriend Tre and our times together. He seems to always be the center of my thoughts while I am trying to sleep. I see the way he smiles at me and the warmth in his eyes as he stares into mine. I always wish that he was laying beside me and I was in his arms. I think about when the next time we will see each other and the next time I can touch my lips to his. My mind races in between all of these thoughts and many more until I finally fall into the darkness of sleep. As I drift deeper into sleep I start to dream. This is when my fears are released and take over my head. Missing a babysitting session, Tre dumping me, or failing a huge test are the most common dreams I have. After hitting absolute rock bottom in my dreams I awake. The small pain of fear still tingles inside me. My body is hot from the stress and my joints have tightened. The fear still lingers inside me as my mind slowly slithers back to scanning all my thoughts. My wandering mind travels to every corner of my brain searching to end all my distress.
